Was gonna bitch about work.......

Well I was gonna bitch about work but I read my wifes blog and started to cry, I remember alot but never forget, I just don't really think about my past, it seems cold, my past that is, and it makes me depressed when I do remember, my friends will always be gone and most of the time before I would think why them and not me.... Life , today is memorial day I feel cold. thats not right but there is nothing I can do.. so today I think I will do something I use to do with my friends and thats play music, except I will be alone, well miss k has a tamborine she can join in..