Wow this is about the worst time to be jobless, January is cold and the power bill will show it and I am so stressed out , bills are going to be like piling up on us soon.. Today the sun was shining and I felt good for about 20 minutes, must of been that vitamin D they say .... winter blues and loosing my job add up to WTF...
Well I got bored and when I get bored I have to use my mind and do something, well I did I went to microsoft on the web and read in depth about XP and Vista.. I like to learn alot and I learned so much I just had to play on my PC and found out alot of services that are running and no need because I have nothing on my PC that uses that service, there are like 120 services windows can run and some start on auto and they run 24/7 even if you not need them, so I went through all of them and read about each one and learned and learned....
Well now I tuned that part of my PC and it frees up RAM that the PC needs to run, plus I found more tweaks in programs that are within windows that run and run but yet you never access them or need them unless your a developer or even more high tech, a power user, so I learned about 40 different things windows can do and yes windows is powerful for people who need the power but if you don't then its just wasting precious valueable RAM you need to operate windows better, I learned and learned about windows so much, that I should be a power user but I trimmed so much fat out of it, this baby can run like a champ, one click and boom I am there..
I also got bored and read about protocols involving how networking flows and why it does what its does and was able to actually tweak it as well so now the internet seems faster so ever thing I learned is good, all because the sun was shining and I felt like shit I learned, but most of it I knew about but the refresher is always good. I should of gone to school for this stuff because now I know more than the techs who do go to class, this stuff is way out there and most people would never go deep like I did but now I know WTF makes microsoft so stupid but now I see between the lines and they should make just a trimmed windows version for the simple minds of folks who don't need all this crap that is for software nobody has or ever will have.
Alot also has to do with software you run and some tweaks with that are important as well.... Even Antivirus Software can really slow slow slow you down, so I read about all the ways and whats about it and found a new program that is like the pro shit and it does not slow you down, the program we were on was like shit, constipated hehehehe but it was better than most of the others which everyone has, if you got Norton you got good stuff but its constipated and any other like Avast(what we the pro version) or kasperkey and AVG or shit so many of them they are like dried up shit, hehehehe okay just remeber NOD32, maybe look it up, anyway alot can slow you down and I can find all the spyware and crap with this new program, so I got rid of 2 programs which were top with one that works better and better, but just having AntiVirus software is a good thing so don't panic , its better than none at all...even if it slows you down its still good to have.
Anyway thanks for listening and if you ever need a microsoft run down or a tweak here and there I bet you I can solve the problem faster than the tech you know and trust, yeah I know the geek squad is out there and alot of folks call them and their little geek mobile hehehehe it even says geek squad on the logo hehehehe well they come to you and solve the easiet stuff, hey I have a thought, I want to join the geek squad, I got the hair for it, I just got to loose like 100 pounds and I can look like I drink coffee all day and never know what fun is hehehehehe yeah I can become a geek, I gonna check into what it takes to be a computer guru... all because the sun was shining....and I was bored just had to read about windows again.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Just so DAMN STRESSED OUT......
I feel so sick, too much too fast, I can't believe its not butter... I am so stressed about everything, no job, have to go to the foodbank, spend WIC check for Baby K to have milk and cereal, I am so stressed about my hair cut, see photo below
As you can't really see the damages hehehehe D has a better picture of how short, short really is... I been so stressed out I think I got a disease but D says its just HIVES, wtf is that, I got these bumps that itch all over my body and its just driving me fuckin crazy...
I think someone needs to just take me out, yeah just take me out, and leave me there hehehe I been applying for work everywhere and been hitting up every resource I can find and its just not there...
And what pisses me off the most, I have called and left messages with several people, no one ever calls me back, all these apps and not one words from anyone after I hear ohh we will call, yeah fuck you and put your phone up your ass.....F,n bitch...
So all I can do is just pace the floor and I feel so sick I am not sure if I should shit or puke or do both at the same time to just get over it hehehe anyway not much else to say but GOD DAMN IT ........ WTF just put me out...
OKAY, whew I feel better now ohhh I see the girlfriend posted hehehe ohhh no better go check it out.... and no have no pubic problems funny girl.....
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Job Searching the LC valley..
OMG this place has to be funny, its the only place a CNA gets $7.00 per hour, hehehehe I can not believe you go to school and become a CNA and then work long hours for 7 bucks an hour, lots of them jobs here in the valley, I found one that actually pays 8 bucks , whew hew yeah send me to college.. sign me up baby ohhh yeah...
Well this mornin I applied for 3 jobs, all janitor jobs and the most highest paid is here in clarkston at 8 bucks an hour and its really a demanding job according to the description must have 2 years expierence and proof of a clean driving record, and all this to mop a floor for 8 buck an hour, but I did applly to them all, my wife thinks I am just a bum who don't care about getting a job but I applied for what is there and will do more later...
S.E.L. in pullman
Allied Supply in Clarkston
The Mall in Lewiston
all need a janitor to clean up dirt and all are part time up to 30 hours a week maybe, well S.E.L. is maybe full time but would have to commute a bit for that is also a swing shift 8 pm to 6:30 am M-Th nights.... but hey its the best I can do for now, what my wife expects and what I can give are well not to get into it but lets just say I feel I am not good enough anymore at anything... Being unemployed will tear this family apart is what I am affraid of, after reading about how we are going to loose jobs everywhere and this economy is going to crash, I should just keep trying to find work until I die of starvation..
Yes we will be the next Welfare Trash to live next to YOU and YOU hehehehehe, hopefully we wont be on it for long but we are going to apply for everything....just because Baby K needs milk in her belly.. So for now I must go and get ready to help my Mother in Law today fix her garage doors and push alot of snow and ohh yeah think she said something about lights need some working too, I can do this, I am handy when it comes to fix it stuff, So to ALL OF YOU blog readers, if you need to be fixed, call .... wait that sounds wrong, if you need your car washed your house painted or maybe you lawn trimmed, hehehe that sounds bad, hey just tell everyone, a man with a wife and baby needs work...thnx
Well this mornin I applied for 3 jobs, all janitor jobs and the most highest paid is here in clarkston at 8 bucks an hour and its really a demanding job according to the description must have 2 years expierence and proof of a clean driving record, and all this to mop a floor for 8 buck an hour, but I did applly to them all, my wife thinks I am just a bum who don't care about getting a job but I applied for what is there and will do more later...
S.E.L. in pullman
Allied Supply in Clarkston
The Mall in Lewiston
all need a janitor to clean up dirt and all are part time up to 30 hours a week maybe, well S.E.L. is maybe full time but would have to commute a bit for that is also a swing shift 8 pm to 6:30 am M-Th nights.... but hey its the best I can do for now, what my wife expects and what I can give are well not to get into it but lets just say I feel I am not good enough anymore at anything... Being unemployed will tear this family apart is what I am affraid of, after reading about how we are going to loose jobs everywhere and this economy is going to crash, I should just keep trying to find work until I die of starvation..
Yes we will be the next Welfare Trash to live next to YOU and YOU hehehehehe, hopefully we wont be on it for long but we are going to apply for everything....just because Baby K needs milk in her belly.. So for now I must go and get ready to help my Mother in Law today fix her garage doors and push alot of snow and ohh yeah think she said something about lights need some working too, I can do this, I am handy when it comes to fix it stuff, So to ALL OF YOU blog readers, if you need to be fixed, call .... wait that sounds wrong, if you need your car washed your house painted or maybe you lawn trimmed, hehehe that sounds bad, hey just tell everyone, a man with a wife and baby needs work...thnx
its okay, something to laugh at...
Guess the shock is still in me, I feel like crying all the time and the wife seems to be the most upset by all this, I got not much to say about how they handled the layoff but now more is getting cut here in Lewiston.
Well just heard uhhhh read anyway on the web its not just here but the whole country is going broke and layoff city has begun this new year, they said 6 million people will most likely loose their jobs and the President in charge coming up will have to deal will this problem, Hate to say it but laugh if you want, we are going to have a depression they said worse than the great drepresion, they said this year will be even greater and now I see crime will go up so more bullets will have to be made, I just might get my job back anyway, so lets hope the USA falls hard.
Already they helped thousand save their jobs by all the bailouts, for union jobs that pay 40 bucks an hour, fuck them all, never bail out, all them companies should of regrouped or failed, its there fault the ceo and management spent all the millions and now the company needs a bailout, Fuck all of them assholes, its the goverment trying to save jobs, no its the CEO laughing because he is a millionaire and just screwed uncle sam in the butt..
I also hate seeing these ads on TV, about taxes, they say you owe call us, I owed 100,000 to the IRS and they got it reduced to 4,000 ... oh so now you dumb fucks that cant do their taxes and fuck around can save, well you and me have to pay the tax then, why are the rich fucking assholes who owe taxes getting a break, they need to pay their taxes not get a break because their rich assholes and should pay but because they are rich assholes they get to screw uncle sam in the ass again....
Wonder why this country is failing, its because the only way to get rich is to steal and take everything from the poor and that is how this country operates, either your stinking rich and your asshole is sweet smelling and you never have to pay taxes or your fuckin on welfare licking ass trying to make a living and you lips are so raw from sucking so hard but your so broke you can't get no relief from the government, only the rich get a break, poor bastards like ushave to die so they can get more rich..
Anyway its something to laugh at when you see them commercials, write down there address and send them a letter saying it's there fault the econimy is failing because nobody is paying there fair share in taxes, nobody but the poor who get no reilef, notice it says if you owe more than 50grand in back taxes call us , fucking assholes because they get paid so you dont have to pay the governemet......is that right???? nope I think not so start laughing because now every big company is filing for tax relief and will be layoff city soon , why can't the CEO just fucking admit 2 million a year is alot of salary and maybe thats why the company has not profit and can't pay taxes or decent wages.. My god its not rocket Science, its called raping the poor...
Well just heard uhhhh read anyway on the web its not just here but the whole country is going broke and layoff city has begun this new year, they said 6 million people will most likely loose their jobs and the President in charge coming up will have to deal will this problem, Hate to say it but laugh if you want, we are going to have a depression they said worse than the great drepresion, they said this year will be even greater and now I see crime will go up so more bullets will have to be made, I just might get my job back anyway, so lets hope the USA falls hard.
Already they helped thousand save their jobs by all the bailouts, for union jobs that pay 40 bucks an hour, fuck them all, never bail out, all them companies should of regrouped or failed, its there fault the ceo and management spent all the millions and now the company needs a bailout, Fuck all of them assholes, its the goverment trying to save jobs, no its the CEO laughing because he is a millionaire and just screwed uncle sam in the butt..
I also hate seeing these ads on TV, about taxes, they say you owe call us, I owed 100,000 to the IRS and they got it reduced to 4,000 ... oh so now you dumb fucks that cant do their taxes and fuck around can save, well you and me have to pay the tax then, why are the rich fucking assholes who owe taxes getting a break, they need to pay their taxes not get a break because their rich assholes and should pay but because they are rich assholes they get to screw uncle sam in the ass again....
Wonder why this country is failing, its because the only way to get rich is to steal and take everything from the poor and that is how this country operates, either your stinking rich and your asshole is sweet smelling and you never have to pay taxes or your fuckin on welfare licking ass trying to make a living and you lips are so raw from sucking so hard but your so broke you can't get no relief from the government, only the rich get a break, poor bastards like ushave to die so they can get more rich..
Anyway its something to laugh at when you see them commercials, write down there address and send them a letter saying it's there fault the econimy is failing because nobody is paying there fair share in taxes, nobody but the poor who get no reilef, notice it says if you owe more than 50grand in back taxes call us , fucking assholes because they get paid so you dont have to pay the governemet......is that right???? nope I think not so start laughing because now every big company is filing for tax relief and will be layoff city soon , why can't the CEO just fucking admit 2 million a year is alot of salary and maybe thats why the company has not profit and can't pay taxes or decent wages.. My god its not rocket Science, its called raping the poor...
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Puddle of Tears...
Yes you all know by now I am jobless.... not of any fault of mine, but big business big layoff... yes they new all about it when they hired us, before xmas they were going to let us go but kept us hangin on, so I sit here thinkin, not much but tears but what else can I do..
They took us all aside into a meeting of our own and told us about no work then tried to coach us not taking it hard, some of the girls were just crying and I felt so low, on they way home my thoughts were not good but I made it, didn't think I could get the truck to flip over the bridge, besides its not my truck, only thing on my mind was my wife and my baby girl...
I owe my life to them and I must take care of my family and what happens? the whole world just ended and I feel like a failure again, I always feel like a loser and now I just feel like why, why why me, but somehow I drink think girly crap my wife bought and my mind is out of service now, really not but ya I wish it was somehow...
Tomorrow is my last day, at work the morale is so low you can sweep it up off the floor, everybody just looks at the ground and nobody is smiling at all, its like life inside just died, I feel it and know everyone else does too, been through this before and before, I just listen to my soul and its emtpy. No thoughts are heard at all, gee wonder why?
well before I get this note too suicidal I will end it with a verse from a song I just played, its a song called "blue train" and the first part goes like this.... Another day is ending, I remember when my world, came falling down. Out there the stars stop dancing. Lost in my darkness now, the rain keeps falling down..... its a love song but the first part kinda fits , its a really good song though.....
Anyway its so depressing to think or to even think, music right now just has me in tears so I must find hapiness in this eeewweeeeeeee peach WTF am I drinking.. hehehehe ohh I see to mikes hard lemon in there, mine now..... All I keep seeing is pictures of baby k, yes there everywhere around here and without her or my wife who loves me no matter what, I would be thinking totally different, I am so tired of life and its apples that fall from the tree that it would of been time to cut it down...
For now I got to look foward and never look back, because if I do I get too depressed.... all I can say is --- FUCK THEM ALL--- .... I feel like playing guitar and recording again, fire up the bass for a line of misguided notes with a light strum of a slightly out of tune guitar with a distorted lead that crys and ties it all together in your thought so you could hear how I feel inside, use to be all I had before I got married and now thinking I should do it again while I am married, never too old to play guitar I guess, something I have always done and now its like I need to let it out...
I got some old tapes I need to get copied onto the computer and make digital, who has a cassette player????? nice home unit, D has not heard these old masters I got, one I have is so sad my mom cried the first time she heard it, she knew it was me and when I got home well first off start from the beginning, I made a tape in my room on my old junk, but took a tape out to moms stereo and played it loud to see how the mix was, well I left it in the stereo and left, we were not allowed to touch moms HIFI, no no no, mom kill, but I left and when I got home my mom was crying in her room so I went to my room, I was 15 at the time and there it was that tape laying on my pillow, so I asked my mom if she was alright and she said, whats wrong are you okay, she thought I was off to die somewhere , she said it was the saddest sound she ever heard and knew it was from me...she hugged me and said are you sure your okay talk to me, I told her I was fine and thought wow music is how I can let it out.....
I am so sad right now, that flash back was about the only time I was ever close to my mom and its when I was alone off into my little world of musical horror hehehehehe You all must think I am a looney but uhhhh okay I am fucking crazy but who cares anyway, hey at least I lost my job and thats better than you right now isn't it.... not funny, I will go play in my puddle of tears....
They took us all aside into a meeting of our own and told us about no work then tried to coach us not taking it hard, some of the girls were just crying and I felt so low, on they way home my thoughts were not good but I made it, didn't think I could get the truck to flip over the bridge, besides its not my truck, only thing on my mind was my wife and my baby girl...
I owe my life to them and I must take care of my family and what happens? the whole world just ended and I feel like a failure again, I always feel like a loser and now I just feel like why, why why me, but somehow I drink think girly crap my wife bought and my mind is out of service now, really not but ya I wish it was somehow...
Tomorrow is my last day, at work the morale is so low you can sweep it up off the floor, everybody just looks at the ground and nobody is smiling at all, its like life inside just died, I feel it and know everyone else does too, been through this before and before, I just listen to my soul and its emtpy. No thoughts are heard at all, gee wonder why?
well before I get this note too suicidal I will end it with a verse from a song I just played, its a song called "blue train" and the first part goes like this.... Another day is ending, I remember when my world, came falling down. Out there the stars stop dancing. Lost in my darkness now, the rain keeps falling down..... its a love song but the first part kinda fits , its a really good song though.....
Anyway its so depressing to think or to even think, music right now just has me in tears so I must find hapiness in this eeewweeeeeeee peach WTF am I drinking.. hehehehe ohh I see to mikes hard lemon in there, mine now..... All I keep seeing is pictures of baby k, yes there everywhere around here and without her or my wife who loves me no matter what, I would be thinking totally different, I am so tired of life and its apples that fall from the tree that it would of been time to cut it down...
For now I got to look foward and never look back, because if I do I get too depressed.... all I can say is --- FUCK THEM ALL--- .... I feel like playing guitar and recording again, fire up the bass for a line of misguided notes with a light strum of a slightly out of tune guitar with a distorted lead that crys and ties it all together in your thought so you could hear how I feel inside, use to be all I had before I got married and now thinking I should do it again while I am married, never too old to play guitar I guess, something I have always done and now its like I need to let it out...
I got some old tapes I need to get copied onto the computer and make digital, who has a cassette player????? nice home unit, D has not heard these old masters I got, one I have is so sad my mom cried the first time she heard it, she knew it was me and when I got home well first off start from the beginning, I made a tape in my room on my old junk, but took a tape out to moms stereo and played it loud to see how the mix was, well I left it in the stereo and left, we were not allowed to touch moms HIFI, no no no, mom kill, but I left and when I got home my mom was crying in her room so I went to my room, I was 15 at the time and there it was that tape laying on my pillow, so I asked my mom if she was alright and she said, whats wrong are you okay, she thought I was off to die somewhere , she said it was the saddest sound she ever heard and knew it was from me...she hugged me and said are you sure your okay talk to me, I told her I was fine and thought wow music is how I can let it out.....
I am so sad right now, that flash back was about the only time I was ever close to my mom and its when I was alone off into my little world of musical horror hehehehehe You all must think I am a looney but uhhhh okay I am fucking crazy but who cares anyway, hey at least I lost my job and thats better than you right now isn't it.... not funny, I will go play in my puddle of tears....
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Stupid webpage ads.....
Things that annoy me are when you use google to find a list of websites from a search and then when you go to one of these pages for info or research and they have all these google ads and amazon and yahoo ads that load and they get like 1 penny for every thousand views of these ads...
I went to a page and it will start to load and then it just sits, waiting for a response from these ad manager servers, which they all are being hit hard and you have to wait for a response or the page wont load, why Internet Explorer just wont load the page and where ever the ad is just display a broken image, I have it all set that if it times out to do such but it don't...
You click on the x and it just sits I had to actually shut my computer off because even the task manager would not shut off the explorer window, it just jammed up with so many ads trying to load what the fuck, these websites are really fucking stupid because I never did get to go to the site much less will never go back, I blacklist sites that don't load so it will never try to load their page ever again....
Another page I should create, a blog about blacklisted sites for being fucking stupid, yeah I will create a new blog and tell in the blog that these sites are really fucking stupid and list the sites name and the link that wont load or takes more than 30 seconds to jammed up you PC.... then people will get my link for the blog in google as well as the fucking stupid people site and then maybe someone will see these really fucking stupid dumb ass shit people who are trying to make money for traffic on these sites but yet nobody can get to them...
Now you see these fucking dumb asshole lame bitches need this so I will now guess create a blog about Stupid Dumb Asses and their websites that are nothing but a pile of SHIT.... okay now I got that out of my head, I plan on this tooo... read on hehehehehe
Okay plan is to get a free webspace or a free blog and even clone this idea on several, but I will go and get signed up with all these places for paid ads like everyone else and place them all over the pages and then for key words to place everywhere I will go to places I found on the web that have lists of keywords and stuff, kinda like lists and lists of words all from dictionaries, and then just post all these in the blogs and pages and keep it going to I have hundreds of pages of these word lists, this way if your searching for something I have that word or words on my page and google will find my page and you can click on it...
This way I can get paid to have these ads and virtually everyone will search and find my cloned blogs and free sites and get bombarded with these ads, I need the money and you all need to expierence this bog down shit I get all the time from real websites, I plan to be an ass about this, its my purpose now to build hundreds of cloned spaces on the web, I found a link that shows a list of about 100 free webspace sites, hehehehe I also know there are about 60 blog spaces I can sign up for, all will be all the same site, or cloned with just millions of keywords the search engines will find.... piss me off mother fuckers, I can't view you site and now nobody will because I will bump you to the back of the line, my 300 sites will be first found in google bitches...
The web is supposed to be the information highway, well now I am gonna dump a truckload of shit on every major roadway in between heaven and hell and its all free to just dump fucking shit everywhere and maybe if these ads load I can get paid for being a really fucking stupid asshole like I am.... so now you pissed me off and now its time to shit all over you and the web..... so first build the pages on my pc , get signed up with ads services first then build pages hehehehe, then sign up and start my cloning everywhere I can get free space, give it to me bitches, give me you soul cuz I am taking you to my hell..........
I went to a page and it will start to load and then it just sits, waiting for a response from these ad manager servers, which they all are being hit hard and you have to wait for a response or the page wont load, why Internet Explorer just wont load the page and where ever the ad is just display a broken image, I have it all set that if it times out to do such but it don't...
You click on the x and it just sits I had to actually shut my computer off because even the task manager would not shut off the explorer window, it just jammed up with so many ads trying to load what the fuck, these websites are really fucking stupid because I never did get to go to the site much less will never go back, I blacklist sites that don't load so it will never try to load their page ever again....
Another page I should create, a blog about blacklisted sites for being fucking stupid, yeah I will create a new blog and tell in the blog that these sites are really fucking stupid and list the sites name and the link that wont load or takes more than 30 seconds to jammed up you PC.... then people will get my link for the blog in google as well as the fucking stupid people site and then maybe someone will see these really fucking stupid dumb ass shit people who are trying to make money for traffic on these sites but yet nobody can get to them...
Now you see these fucking dumb asshole lame bitches need this so I will now guess create a blog about Stupid Dumb Asses and their websites that are nothing but a pile of SHIT.... okay now I got that out of my head, I plan on this tooo... read on hehehehehe
Okay plan is to get a free webspace or a free blog and even clone this idea on several, but I will go and get signed up with all these places for paid ads like everyone else and place them all over the pages and then for key words to place everywhere I will go to places I found on the web that have lists of keywords and stuff, kinda like lists and lists of words all from dictionaries, and then just post all these in the blogs and pages and keep it going to I have hundreds of pages of these word lists, this way if your searching for something I have that word or words on my page and google will find my page and you can click on it...
This way I can get paid to have these ads and virtually everyone will search and find my cloned blogs and free sites and get bombarded with these ads, I need the money and you all need to expierence this bog down shit I get all the time from real websites, I plan to be an ass about this, its my purpose now to build hundreds of cloned spaces on the web, I found a link that shows a list of about 100 free webspace sites, hehehehe I also know there are about 60 blog spaces I can sign up for, all will be all the same site, or cloned with just millions of keywords the search engines will find.... piss me off mother fuckers, I can't view you site and now nobody will because I will bump you to the back of the line, my 300 sites will be first found in google bitches...
The web is supposed to be the information highway, well now I am gonna dump a truckload of shit on every major roadway in between heaven and hell and its all free to just dump fucking shit everywhere and maybe if these ads load I can get paid for being a really fucking stupid asshole like I am.... so now you pissed me off and now its time to shit all over you and the web..... so first build the pages on my pc , get signed up with ads services first then build pages hehehehe, then sign up and start my cloning everywhere I can get free space, give it to me bitches, give me you soul cuz I am taking you to my hell..........
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